Awake each day rapidly sinking
Becoming estranged to feeling alive
Not a glimpse but a faded shadow of the person I seem to be.
Time is going ...
Dominating me with fear
Fear to not experience a moment where I carry a smile on my face that feels no pain
A smile that doesn't instantly fade away in all the numbness that is inevitably consuming.
Pain, sorrow, negative thoughts and memories engraved into my way of living.
It's in my blood, overwhelmingly dark energy around me
Infectious, numbingly destructive mind disease
All I've known to feel, to see
Can't shake the routine out of me
Hope to rid all negative thoughts and memories.
Desire a glimpse of light that radiates warmth in me.
A sense of serenity entwined with enough grace to get through to the faded shadow that's become of me
- Shy
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