I struggling with this feeling that been troubling me
So I been searching deep within me in hope to see
If it was my demons I would find
Bringing chaos into my mind
This longing that I have needed for so long to reveal
This not knowing just what I would find if it was real
So I ask God to help me to see
What this yearning could possibly be
Little did I know what I would find in me
Wasn't what I expected it to be
The demons that I thought I was trying to bury in me
Wasn't them haunting me
But God hanging over me wanting me to believe
I didn't realize when ask for him to help me find
It was him all the time
It wasn't demons trying to get out
of me
But him trying to instill faith to believe
That I wasn't alone in this world
My sorrow I felt and tears I cried
wasn't cried alone
That he was there and felt my pain
The tears I cried he knew how many came
It was him weighting over me
Trying to get me to see
That he was there for me
If I would just believe
The terminal that was surrounding me
That wouldn't leave me be
I couldn't understand I could find some kinda of hope there within
I didn't see it till I call to him
I ask him to help me breathe
To help me see
Just to believe.
That evil wasn't cursed on me
That my demons wasn't after me
That my life wasn't supposed to be
Like this bad that has been always happening to me
All I had to do is ask him to coming into my life
I did
It's amazing he made things alright.
Life is what you make it you see
I'm saying faith is a big part you should believe
Without it you life seem to be
More that most want to see
©tinamarie
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