"I want to marry you."
Is that what you said?
Or am I confused by the
thoughts in my head?
You gave me a ring...
But you didn't propose.
Trying to hook me.
It worked, I suppose.
You said, "Only One."
Forget that one time
you were rejected before
your heart was "all mine."
"First ever ring!"
"That thing wasn't cheap!"
You bailed out of our Christmas
and I cried just to sleep.
But you were buying a ring!
"Don't be so uptight!"
Forget the fact that she held you
while I stayed up most that night.
I did wear that ring.
For a while, you know.
But I knew it was fake and
it needed to go.
So I "lost" the ring.
But you found it and grinned.
I felt so damn guilty,
Like I'm the one who had sinned.
But I "lost" it again.
This time forever.
But you were so damn upset
and I didn't feel better.
So I "found" that damn ring,
and put it away.
You told me you'd prove that
you love me one day.
So it sat in a box,
on the old window sill.
It collected much dust,
and remains there still.
Each time that I see it,
I remember that fight.
I remembered I begged you
to leave her that night.
And you promised me,
with a ring in your hand,
that she's nothing. It's over.
You finally understand.
But she lingered much longer,
and I bit my tongue.
I had a ring on my finger,
didn't that mean I won?
What glistenes grows dimmer.
Not everything's gold.
That diamond grew duller
and began to look old.
I took it to a jeweler,
and wouldn't you know...
This beautiful diamond
was as fake as your soul.
So, was she worth it?
I really hope so.
You son will remember.
He'll ask when I go.
You'll have to explain, then,
why I had to leave.
He will feel abandoned
by more than just me.
I told you I loved him,
although he's not my own.
And if it had not been for him,
this place would not be my "home".
I stayed, for he needs guidance,
and he has the kindest of hearts.
As much as I need to leave you,
it'll kill me when we part.
I will always love your son, you know.
Even when we are done.
I won't punish him for what you did
or what this has become.
I will always be there for him,
and I'll stay civil just for that.
But what we had, although it fake,
we'll never get that back.
©hollywood.
H