told myself the last time that it wouldn’t happen again
I put myself through a trial till i was convinced
But here i am falling again
There's no jury this time but then again there never was
My mind is still spinning, i see the stars
Mi amor, you have gotten the best of me
My walls that i’ve built are coming down quickly
And it's confusing the hell out of me
I try my best making sure you don't see the worst of me
But the time will be destined to come
And i know i'll try to hide
But you will still find
What no cop or attorney would
The times when i'm most vulnerable
The times where i'll run away and cry
It's no crime but my mind thinks otherwise
My heart tries to tell me everything will be just fine
While my brain is telling me to conceal and destroy the evidence
I want to be able to trust
And i know i should and can
You’ve given me no reason not to
But to many people have
And i know you’re not them, but i can’t help but be scared
It's ingrained in my brain to conceal even to myself
Eventually i'll break down
Till then though when i feel negative you’ll never know
I love you and maybe one day soon i'll destroy my walls
Learn to trust you completely
Share my vulnerabilities
And kill the voice inside
That of which tells me to hide
So here i am guilty until proven innocent
Under the charges of not trusting and feeling vulnerabilities
©virgil13
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