Why do I always gotta feel afraid?
Anxiety overwhelming me everyday.
Body is worn down from all the stress.
Man I swear my stomach is always such a mess.
I wish it didn't feel like a 10 ton brick sitting on my chest.
It was never enough I gave it my best.
Mama said I was worthless cos I didn't choose her life.
I would do it all again.
I will never join her fight.
I've gone crazy I can't have my freedom without a pill.
My whole life I swear I've had my fill.
My faith is shaken it has me questioning God's will.
Too many like me know how I feel.
Wishing family would just keep it real.
My illusions of love were broken long ago.
Carry my soul don't let go.
I'm my worst enemy.
I'm so sorry this is the way things turned out to be.
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