I'm not sure whether you believe you or not;
im on edge and on lack of sleep,
the things you say and do ,
only have me confused
I want to tell you im sorry,
but im not sure who to beleive.
I still want to look to you,
for your wisdom,
but I feel it's all blurred
because of your condition
my heart and mind are in a battle
the frustrations I've succumbed
you're voice once calming
now the Bain of my existence.
I know deep down you love me
and only want what's best.
I've tried my hardest to make you proud,
it's only made me sad.
I've done all I thought would make you smile
but it's done me no good.
I've cried when I'm alone
and I'm not ready to give up yet
but to make you happy
it's something you'll never get
you're shrewd and not the same
your toxic in my mind.
I won't darken your door step
until o e day its mine.
so forgive me for being human,
forgive me I'm not the best.
I know I'm not the son you wanted
but I don't give a fuck.
I'm more man than you are
I've made major commitments.
you're just a lost boy with no direction
even though your grey and old.
I pity you because you're alone.
you think you've got someone there
in reality you're all alone.
so forgive me if I ignore you
I know you've lost your mind.
I'm sorry I'm not the son you wanted
I'm the son you got.
S