I took a chance, a chance I never thought would happen.
Each step I took I came closer to the thing I feared most, change.
Do not get me wrong there were many pep talks amongst myself and at times I was ready to runaway, the fear of failing or being embarrassed kept creeping up.
My self talk would start ridiculing me for everything I did and felt and when I tried to stop it, it was like a bully laughing at me, taunting, and belittling me in hopes that it would break me.
Next thing I knew, I made it, I made it through the day, made it through the obstacle that I feared.
Sometimes it takes every part of your life to crumble in order to become a new person, it’s a new slate, a fresh start and there is no option of turning back.
You’re tested to see if you can stand on your own two feet despite having every reason to fall.
There is no safeguard, no net, nothing.
If you fall, that’s it.
Before I was afraid of taking a chance and resisted change at all cost because at least if I stayed the same, I would always know the outcome even if it wasn’t good, but I think a part of me became afraid of staying still.
I guess reality is pretty ironic at times.
©ourreality
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