hopelessness
weak
foggy
desperate
these words describe
me
I'm losing hope
But refuse to go back to dope
I'm lost
But I know what roads not to cross
I'm weak
But happiness I still seek
I'm not giving up or giving in
But how do I go on
when all I want to do is curl up and sleep
my only emotions
are anger and sadness
I could say this isn't fair
but who would even care
the world's unfair
life's unfair
just because it is
does not mean it should be
what more can I do
to not come unglued
I lay here breathing
but I'm not alive
Just when I thought I was at the bottom
I fall lower and farther
from what I strive
a wise person once told me
"this is a minor set back for a major come back"
this has become more than minor
perhaps for me
it's a major set back
for a colossal come back
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