I ask myself the same question everyday, why do i have these thoughts why do i do these things to myself, I don’t even know the reason. i just have this quiet belief that I am never enough, when my sadness is to close my brain thinks of an off switch, a way to feel less of everything for a moment,
because numb feels easier than drowning. I compare myself until I disappear,prettier faces, sharper minds,stronger bodies running past mewhile I stay stuck wishing I could trade lives. I don’t want to be me anymore.I want to be better,but school piles up, time slips away, and I hate myself for freezing instead of moving. I wish I were a normal girl with a normal familyE
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