When everything you touch disintegrates
What else is there?
When you have hurt the last person you had in your corner,
Will you go in search of others?
When no amount of atoning can heal what you have done,
Will you finally admit you are irredeemable?
You want to care
But, you don't.
You want to smile,
But, what is the point?
You are a self sabotage,
And everything good in your life,you ripped them to shreds.
Let your true feelings fall like rain,
Until there is nothing left.
Keep your distance,
No matter how bad you wish to adapt.
Lonely isn't it?
This small world of your own making.
When everyone around you keeps saying,
'The chances that are there are yours for the taking'
All you have to do is reach out,
But, then that little voice starts talking.
Are you going to listen to them?
What if they let you down again?
Only you will be there to pick up the pieces,
But they won't fit like they used to.
Just break them the rest of the way,
And make something new.
They might not like it,
But, it's not them who gets to decide.
Claw your way out of this rut,
With bloody fingers.
Take yourself back,
Till the little voice no longer lingers.
Yeah, I get it,
It's easier said than done.
But, when you finally make your escape,
All that will be left to do is run.
Tell all your monsters to sleep,
Beg and plead for your sanity back,
Tell yourself that these walls are paper thin,
All it takes is a shove and the ripping begins.
As the sliver of light you thought you would never feel again,
Starts to seep in your skin.
Repeat these words like a mantra.
You will never be your prisoner again,
You cannot let that little voice win,
She may sound nice, friendly even,
But deep inside you know the evil within.
©manga_hoe
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