why does it feel like I'm fighting for you
more than you're fighting for me?
because I'm so in love with you
but I always fail by degrees.
a day too late, a dollar too short;
my reaction too great or too small.
I try and try only to fail again,
while you think I don't try at all.
you hold me to a standard of your own
a measure I can't believe;
you get angry when I give up.
but I wear my heart on my sleeve.
when you say to quit,
I will follow your words.
your actions are louder
than anything I've heard.
but in this war I can't seem to win
something odd has changed.
my tears used to flow; they never stopped.
now...maybe its just my brain
but I don't cry like I used to.
I hurt but I don't weep .
maybe some part of me has grown up
or maybe now I'm just too weak.
when my tears are gone, I wonder
what will happen to us, I cant see.
because I'm still fighting for you
but--you fight for everyone except me.
©tammylynn
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