FINAL

My palms were sweaty
My knees hurt
My feet were sore from hours of running
Migraines were eating me up
I was loosing the fight
My heart was aching
Deep inside I was dying
The world was so blurry
I could barely see
My whole existence was a big joke
Here I was
In the middle of nowhere
Wounded physically and emotionally
Blood dripping down my thighs
I was lost
Lost in my own self
Tied in my imaginations
Held captive in my head
Exhausted from denying the fact that it was all crumbling down
Darkness was closing in
Sadness was engulfing me
Fear came in handy
The crickets voices haunting my peace
Where was I going to turn to
I was lost
All alone
In an unknown place
The voices in my head got louder
The skeletons in my closets were out after my life
But then my guardian angel came
He was shocked to see a helpless girl in the middle of nowhere
He tried to talk to me but I couldn't respond
My eyes were filled with years
My mouth dying of dehydration
But I still ran
For all I wanted was to die
To wipe my whole existence from the world
This time I promised my
Self no one would save me
This time round there was no turning back
I couldn't take the pain anymore
I couldn't wait a man to take advantage of the little that was left
I was done with the trials anyway
I was going to end it
One final time
And this time
I made sure it was successful
I saw a perfect place
Where I'd hang to death
Where I'd finally end my pain
And kiss the air goodbye
As the birds sing to my departure.
©magi
Words from my soul
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain
©mara_pain