Do you want to hear truth in pure fact?
My dear, just take a seat.
People will show you by the way they act,
If their heart, for you, would beat.
If they were supposed to be committed,
Even when saying at first they'd care.
Constant cheating was never admitted.
Wasting too many years in there.
.
If they were never physically there,
Whether or not you got to meet,
It shows you they never cared,
Playing on your emotional bleed.
They're cowardess revealed as they hide,
The pain they have proposed.
It's not what's wrong with you inside,
It's them that's messed up and they know.
Be aware, don't fret, and recognize,
What, in fact, they really are.
Deep down their own personal lies,
Is usually derived from some deep scar.
It's not your fault by no means,
For them, all you can do is pray.
Whatever this life, in which, it brings,
Them to their own decay.
I have experienced much bad,
This life's relationships bring.
Some never care as they make you sad,
Remember, it's their own bad wiring.
I admit, I have been confused before.
Tried to trust in untrustworthy words.
Believing their lying lips more and more,
Until reflecting what exactly I heard.
Another strange disassociation,
I admit was my fault.
With an illuded ongoing disapropriation,
I could keep myself locked in a vault.
I knew I'd never see them,
I caught them in various lying tales.
But, I knew if I continued as a friend,
Id keep everyone away and be by myself.
You see, I'm very different,
I do love people all around.
When around people, I'm intolerant.
It's when I'm the loneliest, I've found.
When I'm by myself in this life,
Is where I am the happiest.
Through every pain or strife,
I'm am me even in my nappiest.
I love people and try to help,
Even when there's no way I can.
But, I know in the love that is felt,
Is where I pray for them.
Some say I have built walls,
Some try to tear them down.
I admit they are tall,
So, I can be me all around.
It's not bad behavior,
There's nothing wrong with me.
I just know who I am now without waver,
Too old to pretend.. finally.
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