Withered thoughts that; I've scattered across the pages; of our lives.
Today's sunrise will shatter; the best of your gloomy thoughts ahead
and it will fulfill your days behind with pleasure and pain and some confused thoughts
It's the deepest root of one’s well being they put them self there to keep their self straight when another self is wandering inside of them.
Ask yourself this are you afraid to see the model you role
the model you have set has a face of their own and truly belongs to them.
Your Actions speak louder than your words now that you are reading this and I have confronted someone of a higher power about you and your faults I am like the eye of your soul and in my opinion I speak louder than your words.You fear me as I fear nothing and your exposure is near
Your tears now that fall are like rain drops falling in my dust as dawn awakens I have crept inside your soul and I have spoken volumes of harshness and not much in good faith.
But in all tecnacality it all depends on you and how much you can actually take when your conscience starts to talk to you in the dark silence as you try to sleep and it takes some to end their life or someone else's.
my belief is it all starts with looking back at you.
We were all born a Babe with no sense of vision verse or Pain. We were taught by our elders what and who to be and what to become
The cries of my siblings as my young child weeps in silence
Some walk off broken and some walk off with a great start to life.
Generation has a lot to do with it as well the 1950s and 60s were tough.
it was all about tough love and respect.
I can Remember my father's words be seen and not heard boy and he meant it
Today's children walk with a different anger from my expierence with my own 3 children now into there adulthood
They had there own views on life some of their own rage put them in bad places of their choosing.Our relationship broke down because of our actions and bad influences on their behalf.
When they have children of there own facing situation I hope their rage doesn't make them abusive as I no their is a dark sickness in my youngest daughter but she is on her own path and we do not communicate.
I judge my descion as my concience has checked me.many times over my lifetime and its taken me to this place that I surrender myself to.
From here I sit watching a face reappear that seems to have been missing me for years Many a year have passed the voice says; :(( Yah to many far to many I reply:(
To many way to many the voice sighs and says :(( I haven't wept for you
In years! We both take a long sigh
and relieve ourselves of missing
Our soul of one sighs and smiles
and saz!
Behind the eyes of life I've been hiding his face in my solitude state. No one can see me in here, they cannot walk along side me they can only feel me in their mind. I fear for them and who exposed me as our return is near.
From the cover of our darkness my twin and his twins faces appear, Solitude my gracious gift I pass to you my others.
©sandman20
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