I can't afford to lose myself again. The first time I almost die. Still trying to heal a broken heart. When I look in the mirror I see a woman who was broken. But she is trying to bounce back. There is hope in my heart. But feeling fadeaways. Being me is never easy. Because I have to learn to put myself first. To hear a voice in my head telling me I am nothing. But I am someone special. Who has a big dream? You were imagination on my self. Words are part of me. It expresses my feelings and emotion. Someone once says my words cut me short. My words are my voice. I have many ideas but fear to wipe away. I need to grow as a person. Putting my shoes on and taking that step. I wonder if will I walk alone. Will he follow me and take that step with me? Sometimes I feel like I am a prisoner in my own body. Just try to break free from life. To change my life. Taken that step. Feras won't set me free. What do I do when I do have the words? How can I express my feelings? My life is hard. But taking a chance is harder. Because the unknown scares me. afair of fall falls. I think about my life I want more. I want to be free. Free without fear. I don't want to fool myself. There is that door I can't not open. It is everything I dream about. But what happens if I don't make it? It is time for me to be happy. To do what makes me happy. It doesn't make sense to you but for me it does. Vision is getting clear. The heart is best to fast. Just like that the feeling is gone. Have to build me back. A better me. Make myself stronger. Taken change is never easy. Once I pass go I will see the whole picture. Hope that tomorrow will be so clear to see the truth. I not looking for drama. Want to be free to be me? Trying not to lose myself. Make change within. I will be out of servers for while. It time charge me. Tired being pleasing everyone. Have to put me first without guilt. I have a story to tell. Will there listen? Will there understand me for who I am? Or am I just a fool with no clue how to be me? Make an effort. Trying to not lose myself again. I just me and my words. What do you do when there are no words to say? If you see my loss take my hand and put me where I need to be. Because there is a journey wait for me. I going on a road trip for one. Because I found myself for the first time. So my words can grow just like me. One more thing I say let go find you. I don't want to be lost in time. Want to be free like a bird in the sky? I can see the picture.
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