My first love was to a boy
not that much older than me
He had glasses and a smile
Always staring straight at me
We played tag together often
He pushed me on the swings
Was always the one to chase me
And held one end of my ropes
Before I double dutched in
We weren't even considered a thing
But at that time I thought we could marry
To be like husband and wife
With a picket fence, two boys, and a cute little doggy
I knew my friends would snicker
As they would think of me yucky
If I started to hold hands
With this boy that I thought of quite fondly
But thinking back now
I guess it was just a rush
As I soon learned
That this is what they called
A puppy love crush
It really was just the beginning however
I started it way too fast
As I turned this into
Making love to men
Who I thought had powers
To create that same innocent feeling
Of a one sided puppy love crush.
But till this day
I don't even know
If that same boy would write about me
To be his very first love.
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