FLEETING LOVE: Part Two
the intercourse is good,
but not as it was in the initial phase
everything feels unnatural
even the nature itself,
you are at his house unawares of what's the next mood,
will he want to kiss you when he gets home,
or will he claim to be asleep whilst on his phone,
your thoughts, unclear
you end up crying in mid night,
cause you probably have a UTI,
or anxiety is self manifesting as your 'about to go ' aunt
you become the too goody shoes,
hoping a wife is what he wants,
but 'how do you see yourself in 5 years ' a private entity just after sex,
you don't seem to get it,
but the end of the tunnel seems closer,
a reminder of the condescending moments with your exes,
where one said, why 'are you carrying a fake bag'? you know is a gift and he's never bought you one, or the 'i have to go the gym' but it was just to please his prey
All these spin in your head,
but,
you think, I wish I was with my favorite ex, cause at least, he didn't say he loves you, was never available and overall honest..
you wanna cry right now,
but
its not perfection, a fit, a person that's meant for you,
It's the one you'd scold for sth stupid, and cry, and they'd still hold you, the one you have to make money with , for life..
even I'd you go through the guys who smell like stale cabbage, are narcissistic, and exhibit potential paedo behavior to find you...
phase 3 follows.. just not yet
S