I tried to release all my anger and rage that I kept in my memory bank
It helped for couple hours and then all of a sudden the happy boat sank
Crying and sobbing feeling nothing but sorrow and a big feeling of shame
Feeling like I'm getting the look of someone who doesn't know my name
My world still feels upside down and and my head going round and round
I'm hoping not to make the cops say "He swallowed a bunch of pills again and found his cold body on the ground"
I hoping not to take that path and this time not making it back
Hoping my family doesn't have to pick out a suit and all dress in black
But all I keep hearing and seeing is "He didn't tryto get any help and release the pain
But I guess he was a lil too crazy and his life was to much to maintain
(after I shared my past life all I felt was shame and regret like I shouldn't have said anything and people where talking about me I don't ever plan on trying to commit suicide again but the thoughts will always be there I hope to get rid of them but this was after sinners dance )
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