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Forever but not always

People says pain fades away
Gets better as time goes on
And that might be true but not for me
It's always there just not in the front
I close my eyes to rest my head
And thoughts dance around
Memories I thought were gone
Made a way to be found
The pain is there, just not always
It hides until you've forgotten
When you think you've found the peace you've longed for
It finds a way to be thought of
Forever doesn't mean always
But always is forever
The things you thought that you'd escaped
Will always come back as problems
I hold myself and cry at night
For the diminished progress I've made
But I know full well that something inside me
Has reason to hold onto the pain
Maybe progress isn't constant
But a wavy line to ride
And maybe pain doesn't go away
But gets easier with time
Forever doesn't mean always
But always is forever
©kairojune