So unbelievably hopeless
Having no idea what to expect.
Not knowing the unknown is numbness.
Not knowing what's coming but is something you must accept.
It's hard to actually be apart of something great,
If all you can think of is a valid reason for your self hate.
Dozens of times you wonder why,
But the answer never reveals itself and times just passes you by.
I want to be happy and free,
Free of all worries and insecurities.
No more pain and all the what ifs,
Just free and healthy, just free.
©ashanta
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