I don't even know where to begin.
a friend is gone, blocked all social media once she got her first boyfriend, and here I am wondering when it will end?? First it was me..I left them and came back nothing could ever break us all.. I infected my disease of a disrespectful Bi** to her.
it was raining last night..hard and striking, I should have took that as a warning, a warning that tomorrow--tomorrow will be hell, I can't yell but I can type until my fingers fall, I can write until my thoughts dissolve.
I don't blame it all on her, Shi* I did the same to them, but at least I cared and didn't physically block them on all social medias, I shut it all out and ignored what I was doing because it hurt, these feelings are frightening.
My other friends are probably scared, wondering who's next? and here I am wondering...nothing ever last, the pain the guilt it kills you inside, but that's alright because after all..it's my punishment ride.
Floods of blood fill your lungs, you trusted them and all the panic and mayham slams within, and you think "breathe in count to ten" like thats not the problem!! but it is and you twist your little lies to fix my life? were nothing alike, so stop trying to fix what's inside.
I hate life.
©kit-kat
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