I try
Try try harder harder and harder everyday
To be loved
I fake smile's
Fake laughs to heal my broken heart
I give but I never received
So sad
How can I keep fighting my battles
How can I be who I really want to be
When things and beings I loved never loved me back
How can I rise and shine
When am always facing the hard site of life
My smile's are slowly fading
Am dying
I'm dying of things I thought are good for me
All I want is to be smiling, shinning and cherishing every beautiful moment
All want is to be loved
Seeing bliss in everyone's face
Telling people am okay when they ask When I know deep down in my heart am broken
Crying late at night in my bed tears flowing like august rain
Sometimes I motivate myself to stop overthinking and start moving forward towards the goals in my dream
Always been with me
Alone Sad and Broken
Laughing and giving fake smile's to heal my wounds
But quest what everything changed when I got a family am proud to be part of
Joining that family don't only make me improved in school but influence my way of living
Through that I family the real me in me come out
When I look in the mirror and see the Muhammed I am today and I take a flashback to who I was before joining this family I smile's and feel blessed
Now I no more care about the havingers, impostors and dream killers all am think is how to put smile on the people who cherish me and don't go back to who I was
When ever I see fatoumata reciting a poem hoja Darboe singing in melodious voice and see Haddy gaye hitting us with powerful smile's
I smile's and thank the almighty for blessing me to be part of this wonderful family.
MUHAMMED C, SAY DRAMMEH
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