Its my fault this happens
people using me for pleasure
pictures and videos
I dont say no
beacuse how I long
for some sort of affection
so badly wanting to be wanted
knowing that someone actually wants me
it's not for the right reasons
but for me
its enough
all I can seem to get
it feels good for a bit
being complimented
being wanted
but then afterwords
nothing but quilt
and the feeling of being used
a toy up for display
a doll acting as the user wants it
images and videos
to give satisfaction
to try and fill my longing
someone actually desiring me
but even if it's for the wrong reasons
and after I go back to being nothing
at least for a short while
I felt wanted
I felt important
but then I have the pain of after
going back to nothing worth while
until I'm needed again
beacuse the only time
I'm in any of their heads
is when their thinking
with the wrong one
©melodyal
M