How can you break something that's already broken,
How is it that you can continue to make me feel worse and worse,
Everything is piling up on top of itself.
Im approaching a state of chaos I dont comprehend,
And its throwing blows at me I dont know how to defend,
It's far to strong for me to just bottle up inside, its pain is making it impossible to pretend.
I've lost the lost boy I came to understand that I was.
Like falling into a void found at the bottom of an endless hole. I've lost every last part of my tortured soul.
It's long past the point of taking its tole.
I'm fading away, not into the fog of the darkest gray.
But beyond black, a point I'll never find my way back. Far past any depression or anxiety attack. I'm erased, misplaced, away from all the pain I've ever faced.
Further then I've ever been before. And unfortunately I see myself fading away even more.
©justin_ur
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