Why do people think it's okay
To be a friend to your face
But an enemy as they walk away
Why do the fake ones seem to get
All the respect
When the real souls deal with all the neglect
I just want one day where there is no bullshit No drama
I need to know that evil
Will ineveitably face the wrath of Karma
I know I'm not perfect
I sin like the rest
Differently
But the same in retrospect
I try to be a good person
Lending a hand
Be empathetic
So why does everything have to be so God Damned hectic
Why do all the ones that want to be in my life
Always have to make me feel like breaking down
On the floor alone I cry
Why is everything always my fault
I never do anything right
So love comes to a halt
No matter the situations I encounter
Why even fucking bother
I just want laughter and peace
But I know that will never be
Too easy
Apparently
There is a plan of hurt and betrayal
Destined for me
Friends turned into enemies
Lovers became hateful
Endless tears
Feeling resentful
I don't understand
Why I always have to explain
When the one expecting the explanation Doesn't reciprocate the same
I can't seen to fathom the why's
Or the what's
Of how people can treat others so cruel
No hesitation to just bad mouth 'em
Should I just give up
Say "Fuck it, if I cant beat 'em, join 'em"
Do I dare become one of them
I have crossed paths of many
When their mask falls off
I see their soul for what it is
Their true colors revealed
I want
I need
JUST ONE FUCKING HUMAN BEING
To not be a fucking fake piece of shit
Not hide their true feelings
I know when someone is lying to me
That just makes me want to be petty
I will lie so much better I promise
I guarantee
If to play a game is what one seeks
Then so be it, let's play
It's sad that I have to fucking live this way
I hate being bitter, a cold hearted bitch
That is vindictive, manipulitave
But it seems that's the only way
To get across the board nowadays
You win some, you lose some
But either way, you pay to play
The Game Of Life
©shandilace
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