You were the start of a very dark journey
One that never heals
One that never solved the problems
But I chose you because you numbed me
I was no longer in pain
Seconds later you show your true colours
But in disbelief I take more
I refuse to believe your mot the solution
And that was my problem
I could never answer why
So I just stopped asking
The questions
Never went
They were there in my head
I couldn't disguise them
They started to surface
That's where you came
My solution
My not so smart choice
I went down your road
For a long time
I became ignorant
Ignored all the signs
Ignored everyone that cared
That warned me of you
I seen what you did to people but I didn't care
I simply wanted not to feel
There seemed to be no other option but you threw me much more deeper then I could have ever imagined
You tore me down
But I have my limits
I'm stronger than this
It was an attempt to heal my hurt
You could've never helped
It was an experience
Nothing
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