Please, I'm asking y'all
don't get it confused..
Yeah, I've loved and lost
What was once infused.
I left someone I loved
for half of my life..
Who was crazy as it gets,
While I was a faithful wife.
Then, I used to care about
being with my friend..
It was my fault,
being trapped inside an illusion.
I looked for him
who didn't want found..
It broke my heart
Until my feet left that ground.
Then the fake poser friend
being paid to spat out lies..
I didn't know all that then,
But, dadburnit, I still tried.
I gave it what I had
But, I couldn't do it..
Thankfully I can't lead anyone on
And, decided right then to quit.
Many failed attempts
Seeking a good relationship..
Having hope it was out there
Until reality hit.
Now, I'm no longer the same
I won't hold a place for anyone..
In this untrusting heart
That ship has long been gone.
So let me clear your confusion
Please, don't pretend you know..
Don't mix it up
Hope for a husband disappeared long ago.
There's no more tears left to cry
Who needs all that deception..
A part of me died by what men call "affection".
No thank you,
I'm good..
They were all fake
It's my fault I misunderstood.
I must conclude
I found none faithful, loyal, or honest..
who could love through one's flaws
Or, whom I could entrust.
Now I see that hope for someone
no longer exists for me..
This heart reads permanently closed
Is the facts for when you assume my story.
©trazz79
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