Ghost Of Hurting
Kill me or haunt me,
You know truly where you said you'd be.
Don't fret, don't try,
I won't do this, so leave me to cry.
To forget me may be a wish of yours,
To know me, a fear,
As to seek me, proves an unwanted challenge,
Time will change, even if you don't,
You can try to coax me, but I won't.
I don't need you,
Though it would've been nice to have you.
So I count from 5, down to 2,
But I can't bring myself to continue going backwards.
I'm tired, I am,
I tried calling out, I still can.
Yet you couldn't really care, 'nor did you.
These words are stuck in my throat,
Halting at the sheer pressure of you,
I'd start to wish to drown,
I wouldn't have liked to float.
Leave me alone,
You would try to atone,
If I'd ignore, you'd disown.
K