Baby look I did it. Aren't you proud of me. You told me so many times it needed to be done. I always imagined it would never actually happen. My cowardice keeping me here. You've shared the opinion of many throughout my life. It's something I was never proud of. I wonder if you love me now more then then you did. Our my memories going to linger. Will their recollection spark laughter or tears. Will you find a comfort in them you could never while I was there. I know I made it hard. I hope the world recovers from what I've left behind. That it finds a way to become what I always i.agined it was supposed to be. I wonder where I went from here. Is there a chance my spirit is standing right next to you at this very moment sharing the desire for you to see me in life and now in death. I was tired. I couldn't pick through all the pain and find my smiles. You were always my last. My dove. The one I was always meant to set free.
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