First, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I never did anything right.
I'm sorry I'm such a failure. I'm sorry, I'm a big baby.
I'm sorry for trying to find comfort in the wrong things.
I'm sorry I disappointed you with the decisions I made.
I'm sorry.
My mind has turned against me.
All it's bringing is dark thoughts,
Thoughts that make me feel alone,
Thoughts that make me feel empty,
Thoughts that make me want to end all of this.
I forgot what happiness feels like.
I'm behind a mask In sunlight, but back in the shadows when the sun goes down.
Pillow soaking wet, I sit up straight and keeping sobbing.
Thinking and thinking about the day that awaits.
All I look forward to is going to bed late at night.
That's when I get to put out the acts of being happy.
Temptations of cutting my wrist and thighs take place, but I resist.
I'm tired of breathing but not feeling. I'm tired of not knowing where life's taking me.
They say all waves eventually pass, but I have been stuck in this one for more than four years.
I don't think I can hold on any longer, I think I'm just going to end it here.
Goodbye world.
©Mbalieeyn
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