Its not what you think
No I'm not on the brink
These thoughts coming up
Like a volcano about to erupt
A need to share this strange feeling
For I felt like there was death occurring
within me and universally
It was interconnected empathy
I felt the world's fear and sadness
I felt my internal world falling away to the abyss
As if in one moment I was shown
things I was not to take with me, some all that I had known
A suicide note for the old me, the old world, the old vibe, the old ways, the old feelings
For I was dying the last of me, the sad me the scared me, the me with limits, the trauma riddled me...it was her final breath
I was not scared or sad but could feel how the rest of the world did
I wept for a day
I realised I was mourning too
I was mourning who I thought I was,
what was
Now
I am me
I am who I am meant to be
I am
©sabikenpen
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