Guilt

My hands are covered
In this sticky black tar
It feels like Vernon
It gets on everything
That I decided to touch
It's all over my clothes
And it's starting to be all over my skin
I take a long shower
And I try to scrub and lather
Up with this soap
But this black tar Never comes off
I Never truly feel clean
After a while I decided to Stop
trying to wash it away
I will Never give up
I just defuse the power
That it has over me
And I sit here and realize
There's nothing that I can do to change it
Once I do that
Suddenly it all disappears
I realize by surrendering
I have finally set myself
From all of that guilt that I have
Been feeling for all these years
Because I know that
Carrying that around
Has always been
my choice
And that guilt
Has always
Infected anything
That I used
to Always
Touch
3/25/20
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