Thoughts of regret and shame
Guilt build up and I don't feel the same.
I made a mistake and I can't take it back
I hurt my husband and that's a fact
But he hurt me too
I guess that's irrelevant
because our relationship was new.
But it's my fault this time
I ruined our relationship
It's all on me
I broke our friendship
The trust is lost and the blame is on me
Sit back let me tell you the tea
Met a man at work
Word around... he was a JERK!
Wish I would have known
What I know now
Gave me compliments daily
but I tried to ignore him
He gave me googley eyes
Everytime I walked by
I would look away when he past by
I wasn't the flirtatious type I was shy
He followed me around until I gave in
Been married 7 years with no sin
But he was different
We built a connection with all the time spent
He got me to break my wall
It was clear I dropped the ball
He made me forget my morals
Love, Trust, Respect
Values what are those?
We had a few deep conversations
I replied to his calls and his texts
With no hesitation
He made me smile with his motivation
We went out for drinks
Drinks led to kisses, kisses led to...
Well you know the rest
How could God let this happen
Was this a test?
He was sweet, caring and a true gentleman
He was everything I needed and wanted
He was my side nigga
And I was his side bitch
Because he was married too
We were secret lovers
Nobody even had a clue
As time went on we both felt guilty
He used to say we should stop
But he was in love with the pussy
How could we get like this?
All from one kiss
Is it just sex?
I should have never answered that text
It felt good to get the attention
that I was lacking
I wanted my husband
but I felt like he was slacking
I enjoyed every bit until the day came
I left my phone open for the world to see
Husband walks in and sees everything
How could I be so dumb
Here is when I turned numb
He start yelling and screaming
"How could you do this to us, our family and me?"
"Was it worth it?" "Was this what you wanted?"
Punches and blows start flying.
My marriage is over and I'm dying
On the inside from the guilt
The hurt, the pain, I ruined everything we built.
I broke my husband's heart ❤
I should have never cheated from the start.
©punany
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