I am trying to see.
See a happy me.
Why is happiness so hard and misery so easy?
Everytime I begin to let happiness in.
I end up giving in to misery again.
Won't you listen to what I have to say?
Maybe we can work this out this time.
Everytime I try to make amends the Jackal inside refuses to be friends.
I wear misery like a veil.
I don't get much sleep.
Torment for the wicked.
Makes the restless weak.
It's no wonder so many of us fail.
I'm just trying to see a happy me.
My memory is shot, yet what the Devil looked like I've never seemed to forget.
Hit me with your best shot.
Travelled far in my mind, but suffered a lot .
Carrying the weight of a soldier guy.
It hurts, I won't lie.
Damaged goods, is what they call me.
All in all, just dying to be set free.
The devils laugh, dragged me on for more.
I have dealt with bigger prizes before.
I'm just trying to see a happy me.
basking in a dream of wild horses, to set me free.
The list goes on,
What the hell, am I doing wrong?
I'm just trying to see a happy me.
Forgive the way I got there, I am sorry, but dragging this out, I would hate for you to see.
I just want a better me.
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