Hardiest thing to do

With this demise its not fair when i loose dispair my care is lost my soul is bruised betrayal was used when i let the pain go ohh the tears flow i gotta get my glow back its a pain i cant explain like being hit by a train and exploded my brain my rock got to heavy to carry to sad to be merry heart ripped apart the hole you cant see deep inside of me my tear soaked face trying not to catch a case nothing to loose but time this wont bring him back just a few more words is what i lack here comes reality with a smack back on my feet back to my beat with memories of greatness when i look in that mirror i see him in me and thats what i need to be the best i can be i will make u proud while im savage and loud while ur rooting for me from that cloud.