Being consumed by grief, anger, sadness and frustration is somehow killing.
She sat on her bed reflecting on what he said before he left
"I am done" he said,
Done!! Done!!! Done!!!!
That word sounds really familiar.
They all seems to be done with her.
The griefs are getting too much to bear.
Flashing back to the book she once read at the store, which read
"Your grief is here to teach you something, it doesn't ask you to let go of love, but quiet opposite, it ask you to love again"
Now looking at her situation and finding it difficult to it into action
Can she ever love again.
The experience of her grief is powerful.
Grief is frightening, powerful, overwhelming and sometimes lonely.
Like she is feeling now.
Lonely!! Lonely!!! Lonely!!!!
She had never planned to be lonely.
She wants to be loved by a man.
She wants to be loved by a man.
She wants to be cared for.
It hurts when they all come and go.
It hurts when they decide never to stay.
It hurts when she found no love in the world.
Not even a single man to stay and never leave.
It hurts, yes it hurts.....
Pains all overwhelmed her as she made to rise to her feet.
Worms in her belle biting cause she have decided not to take anything since two days.
All she have been doing is weeping and staring at his pictures since he left.
The man she thought would never leave her.
But like everyone of them,
He left as well....
It was a bombshell when he said he was gonna leave her.
She should have been smart enough to detect his plans,
She should have acted first...
Maybe she would not feel the pain as much as she is doing now.
Maybe he had been the one feeling it and not otherwise.
But it was just too late now.
When he said "I am done with you" cause he is truly done,
And she is left all alone with her grief..
©crownie
C