Heavy

I'm sorry I cant express that enough
Now we soul tied and our heads ain't been right for months
I can say sorry but it's not enough
I gotta train in my throat
I want to speak but I won't
It's as heavy as a gun
Shaking and pissing courage in my pants
I'm hoping the voice I want to lend
Bring the peace peacefully that I want to mend
I tell you...
I know everything does not need a reaction
I know everyone does not need a distraction
But I was wrong to try and locate
your personal detachments
For personal gain
I took you as weak cause I figured you'll fall in every crack
An when you did not I exclaimed you as strong knowing you would vulnerably fall for the compliment
and I accomplished just that..
You laid in my bed and..
We blew smoke towards the fan i..
Didn't know how deep it was till..
I realized how complex my lies were lying between you and I you..
Saw the truth me, I did too
But we continued to lay in the sheets till we covered up the proof.
©porsha..