i'm sorry if i fail
to see that your smiles don't reach
the corners of your eyes anymore
and your laughters
sound like life's loudest mockery.
i'm sorry if i fail
to grab your hand
each time you take out the blade
and line with precision
the pale skin of your wrists.
i'm sorry if i fail
to stop you from beating
yourself black and blue
for the mistakes that
were over and done
and will never be undone.
i'm sorry if i fail
to hear your pleas
because i've always thought
you're stronger than the rest.
i'm sorry if i fail
to find my voice and
wake you up
from the trance of misery
that have you hypnotized
for the longest time.
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry if i still fail
to meet your eyes and
recognize you each time
i look at myself
in the shards
of the broken mirror.
©irleenda
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