I need help is what I tell them but they always ask me what kind like I'm the lord above who knows all who see all and ll I say is help with my suicidal action, it like a down hill spirit spiraling down rapidly fast. What do I do now
Needing empathy but no one to sympathized with
Help me I don't want to get away from this pain I feel within myself. Mental ill is what they label us but we all people who need help but just don't know how to ask or what kind
Is a place with so many people so much boredom yet so much drama helping these thoughts go a way? No it's not it like I'm spiraling down a down hill spiral once again. Against non reality I'm afraid that this place is making me worse but know no one think or even agree with a single words I say
So what now do I continue to live on torment for the rest of my life and ignore help cause no one will ever believe me anyway. I don't wanna go I say but I need to go is what I always say to them but they take it as a I want instead of a I need which hurt me inside
Inside I'm wishing I'm dead crying desperately out for help not knowing a single soul that will believe a God darn word I say so help is what I say because I'm scared of myself right now and forever will be if i don't get the proper help I need
No this ain't a I want to go in, this ain't a oh she's just looking for sympathy this ain't what you think and by damn will I probably can think what you're thinking right now. So please just empathize with me
Help start with wanting but is that the case scenario for me? Apparently not because life for this girl is only a scenario that has happened or that will happen to me in future long run what shall it be I continue to ask myself wondering if i really feel deep inside that I need the help
By all God mean yes i feel like I do need it
But scared to say it shall I do is think of the reality that will happen if I continue on this past I'm going on, so I continue on this repeated cycle desperately hoping someone notices me in so much mental pain
Painless is endless is what I say but it's not. pain doesn't end, it come and it go like a series to a story book help is what I say I need and please
Don't ask me so many question like I'm going to know all and see all.
©thelonely
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