her

I don't want to say it but it's happening again,
these feelings that I have growing stronger from within. 
For a lovely young woman whom im barely getting to know,
but is making it feel so real that im willing to let it grow.  It starts in the morning, she's the first thing on my mind,
then continues through the day and up past dinner time. 
When I go to sleep thats when it hits me the hardest, I really think it's my subconscious,
telling me where my heart is. 
If im out with the guys an image of her stays in my head,
i'm starting to think that without her in my life im better off dead. 
When I look at other women it's only her I see,
all this talk of her has me wondering if she's thinking of me. 
But that's not likely because she has moved on, not on bad terms but to better her all. 
As much as I wanted to keep her by my side,
I knew letting her go she would have a happier life.  Because im not sure that I can provide diamonds and pearls,
which makes it harder to think about trips around the world. 
So instead of being selfish and keeping her to myself, I let her go her own way and share my wealth. 
Yes, I called her my wealth because to me she was worth more than gold,
she had complete and total control of my mind, body and soul. 
If she ever comes back there will be no love lost, thats because in my heart she was never gone.