You can't even imagine how horrible
it was holding back the teardrops
with all the pressure I had building
up behind my emotionally distraught
bloodshot hazel eyes I tried so hard
to disguise through all the depression
I couldn't hide with the emotional
heartbreak I felt inside with those
weeping thoughts in my mind at my
grandmother's funeral as I stood there emotionally paralyzed watching my
family cry as we all gathered around
her graveside to say our final and last
goodbye it was honestly so terrible I
can truly say it's the kind of painful
experience that never dies or fades
away through time because it kills
you more inside with each passing
day that passes by especially when
you lose somebody you love who
touched so many lives over a religious
belief to not utilize a blood transfusion
which only contradicts one of the
biggest forbidden sins that man
can commit in Jehovah's eyes which
happens to be committing intentional
suicide by knowing the blood they
provide at the hospital is there to
keep you alive but you still make the
decision to stand by the rules of your man-made religion and decide to not
take the blood transfusion even though
it means it's your only chance to survive
trust me people losing somebody like
that really pulls on your heartstrings I
ain't gonna lie so here's a shout out to
my grammy to remind her that I love
her and she'll forever be missed until
we meet again on the other side
©joehovah
J