I want to run into your arms like I did the other day
You'll lift me up in the air with excitement and love in your eyes, those pretty eyes.
I'll put my arms around your neck while kissing you softly before telling you again and again how much I love you.
I want to have petty quarrels about my eating habit and you always staying out late
I want to ask why you didn't text first and joke about you being with another woman that looks like me.
You didn't get a woman yet.
I write these sometimes when I miss you so much and can't seem to remember what you look like anymore, but then, I delete it and just let you be.
On days i find myself thinking so much about you,
I feel guilty because I'm no longer sure what I recollect of you
You used to say we had a bond, I wanted to believe that.
I found myself a man, maybe you were right about me not truly loving you, or perhaps your betrayal was too great for me to have forgotten everything like someone who had her mind erased.
You said I lost you years back,
When we met again, why did you try to talk to me?
You seemed so far away, or wasn't I reaching out to you too?
I think I walked away, something tells me I did
Is this what love is supposed to be?
Trials and failures sprinkled with happy memories that are soon forgotten.
I hope someday soon we'll bridge the gap between us, this time I'll try not to run off again.
©tamarique
T