I sat by the river wondering what to do next
I couldn't speak than watch the water flow faster
I didn't know whether to cry or keep calm
Inside me i was feeling pain
Pain that have been living with for a decade
The tears i couldn't control
My life was a lie
Trying to hide the pain and tears
Acting as if everything was fine
Deep inside i was dying slowly
Deep inside i was hurting
Nobody could save me anymore
I had to save myself
After all I'm the one responsible for my suffering
How could i make this mistake?
How could i let him hurt me this much?
How could i fool myself love is patient?
All the questions that i couldn't find the answers
All that was in my mind is how tired i was
What i knew was, i had to get out from this mess
But How?
I was feeling tired
So many times i had to cry inside and pretend I'm okay in front of Him
Did he knew how i was feeling
Did he realize the pain i was feeling inside?
I thought things will get better but i was wrong
He never cared at all
I had to take a big step
But which one?
I had to walk away from that toxic love
I had to throw away everything and but all behind me
I realize my Worthy
I realized how I needed happiness so badly
The only thing that I had to do was to walk away from that toxic relationship
©susansue
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