it baffles me when I think about the promised I made recently to God.. Hoping I can stick at it because I've broken so many, not intentionally. I really hope to keep this one but then my crazy ass went and got high! failing to remember it opens my mind and heart to deep honesty. As my highness traps me into deep thoughts, I'm here thinking about the best sexual experiences I've ever had... Yes, I did..SMH...Now I'm sitting here talking to my subconscious, "No you dummy stop thinking about it, Don't forget your promise to God and my self I fight against my urges. But if I'm being real with my self, it will only ease my urge for a moment. It won't sustain my interest...I thank God because I don't want to keep on going back in circles which serve no purpose for me...
©lilred
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