As I hold back to protect my heart
I'm trying hard to prevent myself from getting hurt
Turning a blind eye to reality works for a little while
In little doses of course, not all at once
But I can't seem to stop emotional reactions from catching me off guard
The memories of you and I are held close
I revisit them often when my mind wanders to you
But as real as they are in my head
I know the past cannot be transformed into the present
So I keep doing what I'm doing
Hoping that it either gets easier
Or it gets better
August 3, 2023
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