This house has been a good home to me alot of sweat and tears laughs and tears went into this house I called home
I even put my souls screaming tears right up on my wall for all to see just to see if they felt the emotion that went into them drawings
As you know like I said before no on single one of them would take the time to understand the meaning much less get the hidden message that was drawn into every line I scribbled
Now as I scrub these floors and clean this house i now know this is just a house that use to be my home
When you have chosen to stay to long the memories you a made will start to fade as today washes them away all the mean and all the ugly of this not so long ago past has taken up the air and that all I can breath
As I sit in my home trying my best to just feel like home again I know within myself this will never be a home to me again...
As the man lays in the next room the one I vowed to love till there was no more of me has taken all of the live we share and gave to another so now he is moteven home to me he is just a person that use to be a friend that I dont know anymore how I miss my best friend how I mourn the loss of a bond that was so tightly woven
All I can do is cry's for the one that I can't find and when I look him in his face I see the man I once knew until I look him dead in his eye then I absolutely know he has turned his back on me so I have made it clear to myself the eye is somrhing I will not look at...
As I try to find a way to make peace as I try to find a way to move on I have found myself in a rut I have found that there is no one program that fits my needs
So I'm left standing all alone in a world full of monsters ready and waiting to feed on me and take every bit of love I have
And through all of this hell all I can do is that I the ones that had no part of the bond that we created as we weave we that bond together there was only two of us in the end there had become many alot of opinions and alot of pushes alor of persuasions alot of dictations
Now they will have what they want and I no tgere will be no remorse for monsters do not have any kind of feelings....
Angela Oaks
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