I dont know when it started or what day it set of off like this
I dont what made me feel my life was no good and in the pits
Maybe it was the 1st year I didnt hear from my babies
Maybe that's why I stayed in my room and cried and felt like I was crazy
All I know is I slipped back into a darkness that's a lil more hurtful
I thought you could see it creeping I was becoming less verbal
Staying away from everyone pretending to be hurt or sick
Or I thought you wouldve seen it when I was yelling and acting like a lunatic
It's been going on 3 years I was screaming for help amongst deaf ears
Maybe never seeing my kids grow up is one of my biggest fears
I'm trying to turn my life around but feeling all alone on this road
Tired of moving and living place to place and living in different area codes
I wanna be kicked back with the kids eating junk food watching a flick
I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart I didnt mean to be a prick
Please let me apart of these girls lives,I'm sorry I'm really getting homesick
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