So , here i am with a question i always ask ,
what i deserve ? is hopelssness my only task ,
I don't remember any of my deeds that pushed me in this ,
Instead of this death seems easier and that's what i wish ,
Yeah i show strong firm and happy but inside i am weak ,
Noone is there to back me up and read what i never speak ,
living a life with just a streak of heartbreak and getting pushed ,
I wanted to cry and scream but instead of a shoulder everyone just hushed ,
May be i deserve this i just deserve dullness in my already dark life ,
Hapiness seems far from sight i am just struck in hopelessness and strife ,
Sometimes i wonder how can someone be so vulnerable ?
Everyone i ever love leaves and i have just to act stable ,
But i am tired , i feel so weak ,
outside i show strong but inside i am meak ,
Why is it so hard for me to move ahead leaving everything ,
Everyone i loved made me feel i am the most worthless human being .
Hopelessly wandering of the streets of life ith no light on the way ,
I am just desperately waiting for a bright , sunny and hopeful day ,
Will i really always be used and thrown in despair ,
Or is there hope even for me that someone is aware ?
©poetic_flo
©poetic_lov
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