you used to be like a fire in my bones.
a high but now I think it's gone.
I would lay in bed I would think of you.
now I think of another instead.
I think of them cuddling with me.
kissing me.
touching me in places where you were supposed to be.
I feel their tenderness.
their warmth.
I wanted you but you were always gone.
I was lonely.
dying from loneliness.
it killed me slow every day.
every night confined to the cold of sheets.
it was like I already died.
wanting heaven but living in hell.
wanting beauty.
again and again.
I fell for your spell.
hurting in silence.
hurting but still I wanted you the same.
I couldn't hear.
I couldn't speak.
yet I chased you.
for two years.
wanting the angel that used to love me so.
thinking about you.
the ache Everytime you go.
I watched you leave.
the sway of your thighs serenading me.
sweet parting.
yet I die.
for the want of everything.
still the hurt remains.
©darkmocha
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