I dream.
I awake.
visions of puddles of blood cuz I had more than I can take.
blood shot eyes in the dark rain cuz I've cried too much.
my anger's lust can't never get enough.
pills falling like candy I wish they could go down the drain.
shots making me feel numb no emotions but a fainted lover is everything.
fore the drug I need is a girl naked in my bed.
she can never love me cause my love is undead.
yet I hurt too much.
this constant ache that chills my chest.
no time for sleep no need for rest.
caffeine to relax.
food to numb the pain.
yet I lurk in the cold of dark shadows.
yet I want your kiss to be my escape.
your touch my in another lifetime remedy.
your body the only soft remembrance that my heart and life was once complete.
but damn the doctors!
damn these nightmares that won't let me sleep!
I'm a poet on the brink of madness cuz words blood and ink is all I was supposed to eat.
yet your blue eyes in dreams is all I wish to see.
you laying across my bed naked is a dream too sweet.
yet I hurt.
I hurt so much.
yet you were my fall from grace.
I'm only ok when I see your porcelain angelic flawless almost teenage face.
©darkdeity
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